My old blog platform officially died today. I hate to admit it, but I have been looking forward to this event for a while now.
Ever since I moved from there to WordPress, I have been bothered by a conundrum with no clear answer. Why had the old blog continued for months to get more views than the new one, despite the fact that there were no new posts? The support at WordPress said there was no technical problem they could see and I should just be patient. The support at blog.de said the views happened because the site was “still active”. Right. As if all these people were clicking on stuff I wrote 6 months ago. In my experience, a post written before last Tuesday is lost and gone forever – never to be visited again (except, maybe, by Mom.)
An in-the-know friend of mine said that the statistics of my former home were probably not true and that the site was simply breaking down. That seemed like the most realistic explanation, but then, why did the views on the old platform spike a little each time I posted on the new one? I finally gave up and decided that once the old platform is gone for good, I might find out if some weird internet connections were recording views on the old rather than the new site.
I concentrated on my new home. Made a few blog friends. Reevaluated slowly the meaning of likes and follows. Decided that I had no desire to do the work necessary to build up a humongous readership. I commented only when something or someone connected with me in some personal way. Followed only when the writing was good or the person was interesting.
I thought A LOT about why I am doing this and for whom. I decided that as much as I like making the occasional connection with a like-minded blogger, I basically write for myself, for Ly, and for people I know. This isn’t an anonymous blog despite the weird name. People in my real life know about it, but none of them are under any obligation to read it. (That’s not true – my Mom has to.) I’m telling my stories and having fun. I’m writing my memoirs one vignette at a time and in no particular order. Someone else is going to have to take care of the Great American Novel.
In light of all this, putting too much emphasis on statistics (sometimes even obsessing about them) had the potential to suck all the enjoyment out of blogging. It was grain of salt time.
My brain doesn’t work that way. It doesn’t like unsolved puzzles. Despite my hard won healthy attitude about the past 6 months of illogical numbers, my brain keeps working on the conundrum at an unconscious level, looking for an answer, as if it were one of life’s great mysteries.
The next few days will either shed some light or bury the question forever.
Rest in peace, blog.de.
From now on, I will too.